It’s amazing how dependent we can become on stability. This stability can come in the form of a smart device or the Internet or a friend or an enemy. In some cases the idea that things will always be the same is a discouraging one, but for this post I'm going to go with the assumption that the opposite is felt.
I like to dream of a life with the same constants that I have now even though I'm aware that the likelihood of this dream-life coming to pass is incredibly low. I've been doing this for as long as I can remember and the idea has brought an odd sense of comfort throughout the years.
As much as I know that these constants are bound to change, every time any of them do, I freak out. It doesn't even have to be a big deal. For example, in the 8th grade my pencil case always had exactly 2 mechanical pencils and 3 ballpoint pens (1 red, 1 blue, 1 black) amongst other things. When I lost a pencil I replaced it with a backup from my locker, but for the rest of the year part of me continued to mourn the loss of that $1.50 pencil.
Depending on the degree of change that occurs, I cannot function. This is extreme, but it’s the truth.
Dictionary.com defines change as: a transformation or modification; alteration.
This definition is simple enough, but for the most change is not just something that happens (at least not the change we’re talking about). It is not simply one event. It is not as simple as changing your shoes or kicking a football. It's much more than that. It's something you experience over time.
Change is inevitable. Change is a part of life and it will happen whether we like it or not, whether we are ready or not. Change is not something we can merely escape. It is something that we need to learn to deal with. But that’s not always so easy.
I know for a fact that I can’t deal with change by myself. And I'm lucky I don’t have to. I have people around me willing to listen to me freak over the little things and the big things.
And more importantly I have Him. That may sound incredibly cheesy or whatever, but it’s true. When I ask for help, He’s there. I'm not saying every time I freak out I hear His voice telling me it’s all going to be alright – because I don’t. Sometimes I just feel a little calmer or a little saner.
And this is most definitely not because I’m good or insanely prayerful or 100% confident in my faith, because I know for a fact I’m not.
I can truthfully say that without this constant (God) anger, frustration, and blame would be a part of my life every hour of every day.
It just takes a small prayer.
About change in relation to the future:
"18 But forget all that--it is nothing compared to what I am going to do.19 For I am about to do something new.See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.” – Isaiah 43:18-19 (NLT)
About change in relation to God:
“17 Whatever is good and perfect is a gift coming down to us from God our Father, who created all the lights in the heavens. He never changes or casts a shifting shadow.” – James 1:17 (NLT)