There are those times when you're so high and happy that you feel like nothing can get to you. And a moment later you feel like you're falling farther and farther down a hole and you just can't stop.
For me, my fear of hitting the bottom of this hole is just as bad as the feeling of falling. I wonder if simply being happy is enough or if I have to "indulge" in this feeling to figure out what's really wrong.
Maybe somedays we'll never know what's going on, and that's okay. We'll sing redundant songs and spend too much time watching series. We'll go about sharing knowing smiles and making each other laugh. We'll appreciate the people around us and find peace in the moment. The fear will simply go away, and have no grip.
Hook: She told him stories. He taught her to fly. How?
Other days we'll have to take the time to stare our awful feelings in their [metaphorical] eyes and try and understand them.
“Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less.” - Marie Curie
Those are the days when we may hear these horrible mocking voices. The days when the hole feels deeper, and the Light seems farther away. During these types of days we’re going to have to learn to realise that the Light isn't so far away. To find the Light we don't necessarily need to know how we reached here in the first place. Sometimes it’s not a matter of retracing one’s steps to the beginning. Some days all we can do is find another way out. Because maybe our holes are not holes at all, but tunnels that can lead us to somewhere beautiful.
“We don’t have to go backwards in order to move forwards.” – Dr. Jeremiah Sacani (Ben Shenkman, Royal Pains)